Well each morning so far is like apending doom, and I get to make my own decisions but it's hard since you keep hearing your parents voices in your head. Well that has trained me to be afraid of alot of things and I'm not anymore. As far as doing or going any where I want I'm staying at ny friends house for who knows how long and the new friends that I had made the past year didn't even show for my Birthday but I don't seem to care. I had spent so much time with them that I thought I belonged with them I guess the old campus was really sucky just for haveing terriable people no one you can count on Junior year sucked and senior year I will forget about haveing my friends from last year since they didn't even answer me all I wanted to do was have them over it's not like I want presents. All I got was $20 and I'm fine with that. It made me feel really good when my friends from freshman year came all the seniors except for a few came some had a reason and thats fine but the ones that said "I have something better to do," are completely rude and will only be forgiven if they apologize. I will forgive pretty much anyone if they say they are sorry even its just a hint at one. I had two friends saying they were going to come that were from the old campus but they couldn't make it in the end and because of one someone else couldn't come at all and was sad. I appologize to that person. I don't know what I did that was so bad that no one likes me since everyone else adores me I can't understand it so its confuseing and they or anyone else for that matter even has to read this I just have to clear the air about the way I think about things in the current state that they are in. I will and for ever will be sorry for my existance... v.v